Supplies Necessary (Thursday)

So, yeah, I need to get paper.

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I hate this, working with no results.

I don't know why I even try these days, no good ever comes of it.

Yes, most of this post will be a pity-party and random thoughts about what I need to do, so I give you permission to disregard this post.

Have a nice day.

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Ever get that feeling that the whole world's conspiring against you?

Yeah.

It must be.

Because quite frankly, if the world didn't give me so many issues, the little stuff wouldn't be a problem.

So I need paper, but more importantly I need to shake off this artblock/incompetence/laziness/unmotivatedness/stupidity/lack of confidence thing I've got going here.

I mean, I don't even want to draw these days.

=|

I'm not satisfied anymore. Nothing I do is good enough. Every time I look at someone else's work I just get more disappointed than inspired, because I feel I'll never be as good.

Maybe I've been trying too hard to be good than thinking about being original.

Then again, when I think I'm good enough I want to create something new and exciting.

I really don't care how many of you say I'm good, in response I'm always thinking 'I'm not as good as they are.'

Maybe I've been focusing too long on drawing.

Maybe I should try painting, or pastels, or charcoal.

Maybe I should try drawing landscapes, buildings, or animals.

Maybe I should just quit.

I do need to focus more on school, but I don't want to work on that either these days. Well, I always think school's boring, but I've felt less inclined to put effort in.

I just know any art teacher would hate me.

I want to do what I want when I want to do it, and I really don't care.

Even most of the projects I set for myself have never been finished.

I have a lot of things to consider.

Go with God,

~Allie

Slowly But... Slowly (Monday)

FAR too slowly.

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I've found I've been thinking far too long about drawing other's characters, and so therefore will be inventing more of my own.

I will also be thinking of recreating the 'me' character.

Frankly, I'm far too boring outwardly to be seen as the great intellect I am. (Laugh and you will die a slow and painful death involving rope, plastic spoons, and hot lava.)

So yes, expect to see the Minstrel again, considering she's the only character I consider mine.

I'm developing her more so that she has a personality.

I've also got a male character in the works, I haven't quite decided who he is yet, so you'll have to wait.

...

Go with God,

~Allie

Friendly Little Artblock (Sunday)

Friendly Artblock is Friendly.

So yes, that image pretty much sums up what I've been dealing with right now.

Every time I reach from a pencil it bites my hand, crippling it.

That's the reason there's been no arts.

I've got a feeling that this means style changes are on the horizon. It's never a pretty and smooth road to take.

-sigh-

And for those of you out there who thinks artblock is laziness, SHUT UP.

-.-

For me, artblock means that I cannot, under any circumstances, draw well.

So, like many others, I choose to simply wait it out. I refuse to play its little game.

I will now, hug my cat, read a book, and play videogames until Monday.

Go with God,

~Allie

Valentine's Day (Monday)

I was browsing Deviantart, and saw all of this sappy Valentine's day stuff.

So I thought of drawing my heart-eating demon to celebrate the day.

I didn't feel up to the task of drawing her actually eating a real heart, so I came up with the idea of her being a Pacman eating little hearts.

:)

Then I tried to actually draw her, then I got distracted, so I drew a cute little girl-monster instead.

Some tongue she's got there, huh?

And the little version of her is supposed to be proportions, but her arms are way too wide.

I thought of adding hair, but thought it'd be better without.

:)

So, yes. Today you get demons and monsters. Happy Valentine's Day.

Go with God,

~Allie

Get It? (Tuesday)

-.-

This happens.

Every time.

Either someone doesn't get it and I must explain (because they do not read the actual POST) or they will question my motives.

-.-

So, yes.

Don't be ignorant, listen to what the artist has to say.

^.^

Makes the world go round.

I tried to make the image clearer, but I think I'll have to go back over them with Prismacolors from now on. They scan better.

Should really get back to work on my story...

Go with God,

~Allie

Details, Details... (Monday)

I hope you can read this.

PLEASE.

Tell me I'm not the only one who notices this?

You don't have to tell me you always imagine this happening, because, quite frankly, if you were that much like me, I'd be worried for your sanity.

I mean. Come. On.

Really?

These are the women you think went on quests?

O.x

No, I've not drawn the girl in the last frame before, but I wanted a girl who was an antithesis of the first.

Seriously.

Putting a girl who dresses like that on a quest would be nothing but a burden. If I had to take her, I'd marry her to a foreign king/prince ASAP.

-.-

Well, I hope you enjoy.

Go with God,

~Allie

Yes, it's (Saturday)

I drew this at a sleepover.

It was a ten-minute sketch with some ink and color. I like the shading on the dress.

Well, other than the sleepover, my sissy's home. :)

And her friend sent her with a nice, full-sized sketchbook. Used, but whatever, got plenty of paper in it.

I've been meaning to get one, but turns out good does come to those who wait.

I got two new markers today. A light pink and a very light grey. Cassie took me to the store where we ran into friends.

Yeah, that's about it.

Scrapbooking pens are great for detailing.

Don't ask about the position or the dress, I just wanted to try the effect to see if I can still proportion legs to a body. I'll let y'all be the judge of that, cause I'm undecided.

...

Go with God,

~Allie

Monsters in the Castle 3 (Thursday)

The little prince cried hysterically. “But it was there! I saw it, right over there!” “That’s the wall dear, no monsters can come through the wall,” his nurse soothed, trying to get him back to sleep. It was very late, and it had been a long day for the little prince’s nurse. “You didn’t see it, it was really scary!” The nurse shushed him and replied gently, “All right, if you see the monster again, close your eyes and say a prayer, when you open your eyes again, the monster will have left.” The boy nodded and calmed. His nurse bid him goodnight once more and left him alone again.

The little prince was restless, and woke several times. The monster was in his dreams, and once, when he woke with a start, he saw that face again. He squeezed his eyes shut and prayed for it to go away. He peeked through one eye to see that the monster had gone. He was quite nervous for the week following, and several times saw the face out of the corner of his eye as he went about his daily routines. As he grew older, he saw the monster less and less. Though he couldn’t sure, he thought there had to be at least two of them.

On his twelfth birthday, the prince woke up late. He stared at the ceiling over his bed for a while smiling. Today he was going to have a big party, eat all of his favorite foods, see all of his friends, and get to open all the presents that had been arriving over the past week. Then he heard it. The noise had woken him. He’d almost forgotten about it. He slowly sat up, trying to pinpoint where the noise was coming from. There it was again, coming from beneath him. He got out of bed and knelt down. Lifting up the bed skirt, he peered underneath. All he saw was a great pair of eyes looking back at him. They seemed quite as shocked as he was. Suddenly, as if just realizing what he was looking at, he shrieked and run full-speed out of his room. His attendant looked under the bed while he cowered just on the other side of the door. There was nothing there.

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So, I posted the first two paragraphs with the third.

I just wanted you to see how it's going so far. I'm not really sure I like the choppiness of it, but it's just how it's coming to me. And don't worry, he stays 12 for like... 4 whole paragraphs.

=P

Go with God,

~Allie

Grudgeling (Wednesday)

Introducing

GRUDGIE!

The grudgeling.

If you're not in drama, you don't get it, but you can enjoy the cuteness anyway.

:)

Why yes, that is a rear view of Grudgie.

Watch This. It's cool.

I'll get back to the story tomorrow, I want to work on it more today.

Go with God,

~Allie

Monsters in the Castle 2 (Tuesday)

The little prince was restless, and woke several times. The monster was in his dreams, and once, when he woke with a start, he saw that face again. He squeezed his eyes shut and prayed for it to go away. He peeked through one eye to see that the monster had gone. He was quite nervous for the week following, and several times saw the face out of the corner of his eye as he went about his daily routines. As he grew older, he saw the monster less and less. Though he couldn’t sure, he thought there had to be at least two of them.

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Since you requested more, you get the next paragraph.

This is turning out to be a very short story.

I'll likely not post another paragraph until I'm happy with how it's going, but illustrations may pop up next if I get around to them.

Have a nice day.

Go with God,

~Allie